2016 is coming to an end today and I have many mixed feelings…
As I look back I realize what a year it has been! It started off kinda rocky when we had to say see you later to our amazing Army family we had come to depend on here in Hawaii! Thankfully God always provides and we quickly gained new family into our circle! I am so grateful for these amazing ladies and now can’t imagine life without them! We also had the wonderful pleasure of reuniting with “old” family from years gone by that reminds me how the Army community is stronger than what meets the eye!
The kids and I welcomed Phil home once again surviving another “business trip”! Woohoo! Yay! #nevereasybutalwaysworthit
I crushed some pretty awesome personal goals and proved to myself I could!! On April 10th as I crossed the finish line of my first half marathon I was filled with unexplainable emotion! In the moments that followed I healed some old wounds of self doubt and failure and I did it all myself!! Wow, still gives me goose bumps in a good way!
As the year progressed I also completed all theory components of RN school! Long time coming but I am down to my last clinical exam and at the end of 2017 I should be able to say I am an RN. (Fingers crossed)
So with classes completed I went back to nursing and I love it! (Even when night shift has me taking selfies and sending to Friends to stay awake!!!)
Because despite the crazy schedule I love working with patients! I love seeing my knowledge in action and being happily surprised when it is put to use effortlessly. I truly stop and go “I do know what I am doing” and give myself a silent high five! I must admit though that I am still trying to figure out the balance of wife/mom vs. nurse life!! It is a hard one! I am constantly torn between the two “worlds” and continue to pray it gets easier!! My punkins are growing up too quickly!!
So now on to 2017! I have many mixed feelings, I am honestly sad to see the new year come!
Where will we be next is the question looming over us! We wait for orders in excited anticipation for the adventure to come but at the same time I am filled with dread because I don’t want to say see you later to those who have held my hand, encouraged me, laughed and/or cried with me, and inspired me in so many ways!!
Thank you 2016 for the memories, laughter, and achievements! I pray God blesses us in ways I can’t even fathom yet during 2017! I know He will, I honestly have no doubt but tonight I will still be somewhat sad welcoming in the New Year as I know the down side of things to come but can only wait to see the blessings!!!
Anyone else have to learn things more than one time? Sadly I do. I don’t know why I can’t get it together the first time. It is one of my frustrations, I shake my head at myself and want to scream “oh duh idiot”!
Currently this is happening in my re-realization that I have to eat to be healthy and lose weight. It isn’t just about not eating bad foods but more importantly is to be eating enough of the good foods. All my life I have believed that if I wanted to be skinny I needed to eat less. While following the fix I actually realized that one of my biggest mistakes was not eating enough food in any given day. Now, know that in no way am I saying I didn’t eat, I did eat, just all the wrong foods and wrong portions in every way possible. Read more
Working out is one of my biggest struggles because it is my least favorite thing of all time. I have learned that I love the way I feel when I am done and consistent with it but I literally HATE almost every minute while I am doing it. I enjoy jogging though, after about 5 minutes into it, here I find my happy place to think and feel empowered but I still struggle to get started every time.
When I started the 21 day fix I didn’t hate the exercises as much others I have tried over the years. After 2 weeks I didn’t dream of missing a day and I allowed very little if anything to come between me and my workouts. I knew in just 30 minutes I would not only be done but also a healthier me who looked better and felt amazing. Read more
I am a passionate person. When I find something I love I dive in head first without looking back. Then a day comes where I find my passion dimming or at least my commitment to my passion wavers, slows, and seems to disappear. This has bothered me a lot lately and I am trying to understand it.
Over the years I have wanted to take on different home based business with the idea of making money and helping my family as well as others because of a product I found that I felt passionate about. I have truly loved the “products” in which I attempted to make money selling, I believed in them, I used them, and many of them I still do.
Attempt number one… candles. Went to a home party and loved them and was sucked in. Learned quickly I wasn’t a sales lady at all and hated getting up doing the whole party thing in front of people. Read more
Life is amazing and wonderful. Life is crazy and confusing. Life is frustrating and magnificent. Life happens all around us and sometimes we control our day and sometimes our day controls us via commitments or various random happenings.
As much as I try to plan my life, my plan tends to fail. I use to think that meant I had failed. I am learning it is not failing but living. Between my diagnosis’ of depression, anxiety, and ADHD I am a crazy (in a good way) woman who tends to be impulsive, emotional, random, confusing, and totally impatient. Read more
Do you like sugar? I LOVE SUGAR! At least I think I love sugar. My head tells me I love it and it has even in the past told me that I NEEDED it. Seriously sugar has been my drug of choice for most of my life. It is my version of others heroine and the addiction is no joke and I have tried to quit it many times. When a bad day or better yet a bad moment strikes my first inclination is to reach for the biggest and best sugary treat I can find.
My day does not start without coffee and in the past it couldn’t get started without a sugar filled cup of coffee. I probably should have taken stock in coffee creamer. The variety of flavors were so delightful, especially during the holidays, my heart would skip a beat as I doubled up my creamer purchase to enjoy the coffee filled delight. Read more
So this just came up on my Facebook memories today. It is ever so fitting in the roller coaster of life.
Last year when I posted this it was because Pillip was yet again deploying and we were facing an extended separation. I couldn’t for the life of me understand why we were facing another one that honestly seemed very senseless. God of course works everything out, we survived, we flourished in moments and we despised others but we made it through to today when we are all together again. Read more
Since my last blog post life has been happening and every day I think of writing but nothing has been on my heart to share. Many little things make up this evenings post. I pray it comes together and makes sense and even resonates with some of you in one way or another.
I am super proud of myself this past week because I have successfully gotten my self up out of bed 0515 on school/work days and pressed play on my workout videos before getting the kiddos to school – #Winning – it feels so good to be sore and as I knew it would my food follows and is on track because I always have a better frame of mind after exercise.
The weekend was productive as we waited to see what the hurricane watch weather was going to do, it ended up being muggy and more muggy. I got in a great jog in Saturday morning followed by a total clearing out of my “catch-all” closet, desk area, and drawers. I love having my surroundings organized! I smile when I sit down at my desk or open the closet to get something! These little things make a big difference in how I function daily. Read more
I have been struggling you guys. I have been struggling since June. How is it that the one thing you want more than anything else – my husband coming back from deployment – can be the one thing that leads to such crazy chaos that you lose sight of the other thing you wanted and fought for – ie. my health and fitness?!
Last August when I started my journey with Beachbody I promised myself to give it my all. Phil was here and for the first two weeks he did my workouts with me. He made it possible for me to really focus on my food and only my food while he cooked and fed himself and the kids. He is pretty awesome like that! It was tough but it worked and it provided what I needed to be in a great groove when he was off to Korea because I was in such a rhythm that feeding the kids healthy right along side myself was easy peasey!! I missed him so much, always do when he is gone, but because I had my challenge groups and the kids I put all of my energy into making the healthy changes I needed to be successful for life, or so I thought. Read more
When you decide to do something in your life what guides you? What is at the root of your inner voice that says hey let’s do this or try that? I have been guided by so many different factors through the years and I know each one has had a purpose in shaping my life and the woman I am today. Read more