My Workout Struggle

Working out is one of my biggest struggles because it is my least favorite thing of all time.  I have learned that I love the way I feel when I am done and consistent with it but I literally HATE almost every minute while I am doing it.  I enjoy jogging though, after about 5 minutes into it, here I find my happy place to think and feel empowered but I still struggle to get started every time.

When I started the 21 day fix I didn’t hate the exercises as much others I have tried over the years.  After 2 weeks I didn’t dream of missing a day and I allowed very little if anything to come between me and my workouts.  I knew in just 30 minutes I would not only be done but also a healthier me who looked better and felt amazing.  

Somewhere along the way I realized I was stronger than when I had started so I bumped up my weights and continued on.  Then I plateaued.  After many discussions with other fix friends, my hubs, and reading articles I decided to order the 21 Day Fix extreme workouts.  I have given them an honest attempt and tried to push through as much as I could but I have never enjoyed them.  Actually, I dread them.  This dread has led to me pressing play less and less and less.  I find this UNACCEPTABLE!  So unaccptable that I have honestly spent many hours berating myself for being a lazy slacker.  I have believed for some reason that going back to the original videos meant I wasn’t pushing myself hard enough and that I would be a quitter.  This self expectation and subsequent failure has led to an unhealthy tailspin backwards for me.  I have in many ways quit and given up on myself over the last few weeks time and time again.

Today however, after another week of feeling like crap and a frustrating night sleep tossing and turning, I realized that any workout I do is better than the “tougher” workout I don’t do!!  What good are the extreme workouts to me if I dread them so much that I just don’t do them??  NOTHING!  Absolutely, unquestioningly nothing.  I am better off doing the original videos, switching up my weights, and adding my jogs in a few times a week.  So today I am promising myself to let go of my self-induced guilt of what I should be doing, i.e. extreme videos, and instead I am going to press play and love myself anyways.

For anyone who reads this I want to say that nothing matters as much as being healthy and doing your best.  Your best and my best may look very different.  What type and style of exercise routine you enjoy doesnt matter as long as you give it your all because you deserve to feel great.  Whether you are going to the gym or working out at home find what works for you and what you find joy in committing to.  When we find joy in the doing is when we can then achieve our best!  Personally I am learning and re-learning all the time that my only competition is me.  I am the only person I have to prove anything to and only because I desire to live my best life always.

I am making a promise to myself to love me unconditionally and to stop feeling bad about who I am in the moment.  I am letting go of my unrealistic expectations of self and setting real achievable goals for both physical and personal growth.  It is time to embrace and accept me right where I am.  I am excited for the week ahead and feeling encouraged into action instead of discouraged to even try!




Hello. Welcome. Come on in and join me on my journey as I go from the token fat girl to the ever developing token fit woman. I am "just" a wife and mom who loves Jesus and struggles daily to find the balance we all desire throughout life. I depend on His word for guidance, I fuel my self with healthy foods, and I depend on regular fitness for strength so that I may grow towards the better version of myself each and every day.

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