When you decide to do something in your life what guides you? What is at the root of your inner voice that says hey let’s do this or try that? I have been guided by so many different factors through the years and I know each one has had a purpose in shaping my life and the woman I am today.
As I contemplate the guiding factors in my life currently I see four “areas” I believe to be the BIG influences for most everyone. Please note that I am also very sure this is in no way an exhaustive list. I am probably missing a billion other factors but for now lets start here.
- People: Anyone from family, friends, acquaintances, teachers, strangers, and of course the media.
- Money: There is not one person on earth that can say they havent been influenced to do or not to do something in relation to money. Simply said money is a HUGE factor, good or bad, in life and guides so many of the decisions we make.
- Dreams/Wishes: Our hearts desires! Our Bucket lists!
- Environment/Circumstances: As an infant and through childhood we usually have little control in this area because it is guided by our parents. I believe the time comes though when each person must accept responsibility that our life choices related to people, money, and dreams shape the environment and circumstances we find ourselves in.
- FAITH: Everyone has faith in something, personally my faith rests in Jesus the son of God and the plans he has for me, this belief in my faith guides me a lot in life.
Here is how I see all of these areas guiding us, most of the time it is a unconcious flowing reaction as our personal faith shapes what we look for in the people we have close to us and in turn those have some influence on how we choose to earn and spend money as well as what we dream of, work for, and desire from life. Each and every choice from one group has a ripple effect on all of the other groups in one way or another.
Today’s post is the result of watching my daughter play wondering what was currently guiding her. The thought led to another thought that led to a different thought that brought me to todays post and realizing what the biggest guiding factors in my life are. Kyle Leroy and Georgia Christina! They are the reasons for everything I do, seriously everything, even my selfish choices have a fundamental purpose related to those two crazies of mine. Many may find that hard to believe but it is absolutely true. All answers in my life may begin selfishly but at the very core of everything is my kids!
Why did I start my journey for a healthier life last year? The obvious answers are that I was tired of being uncomfortable in my own skin as well as that I wanted to be a whole lot smaller! I wanted to feel good buying a swimsuit and wearing it while walking on the beach or at the water park with my kids without feeling like I had to be covered up. Losing weight and getting healthy made me happy and gave me more energy. I feel like I got some control over my life and gained confidence along the way. I am able to look both kids in the eye and tell them anything is possible if you want it and WORK for it. The old me loved them and wanted to be an example they could look up to, in some ways I am sure I was, but today I know I am. When I die I doubt either kid tells their grandkids that their great grandma lost a bunch of weight one year while we were living in Hawaii. However, I am willing to bet they may share that I ran a half marathon in Hawaii. They may never stop eating chocolate (as I havent given it up completely either) but I bet they will eat it in moderation while making fruits and veggies staples in their kitchens for life because that was the example set for them. They may never, especially Kyle, love to workout every day but I believe they will see the importance of it and incorporate regular fitness into their lives.
As Georgia told me she was drawing and coloring pages for a book she was writing I was filled with pride and hope that she does exactly that. I shared with her how awesome I thought her plan was and that I want to be the first one to read it. She smiled brightly and said “you are writing a blog and I am writing a book”.
Sadly growing up I didn’t believe in myself, my abilities, or my purpose like my kiddos do and I still struggle to see my worth but I know God created me like no other person. He planned me for purpose, even though I may never fully know what that purpose is, and I rest in the belief that it has a lot to do with Kyle and Georgia. Everyday I am guided by my faith, in my home, with my husband and kids to be the best woman I can, because I know all my choices are impacting them and the choices they will make through life. I will openly admit to failing at things but the unconditional love God gave me through Kyle and Georgia guides me to make at least one choice better today than one from yesterday. I pray that I am teaching them to fight for whats right and good in life. They have greatness in them and I know they will be mighty in the world around them.
So as I watch my Gig color and plan a book that may or may not ever be more than what it is today I am glad that I didn’t just say I want to write a blog but that I started.