If only… then I would…

I know I am not the only woman who has spent too much time saying statements that begin with if only and end with the thing I want to do but won’t because I feel I haven’t earned it yet.  X, Y, and Z have to be accomplished first.  The thing is how many of us get our x, y, and z’s in order?  Once again I am raising my hand and saying this is me!  I never get done a quarter of the things I want, wish, and dream but I am working to change that.  I am dedicating the rest of my life to getting up and doing what I want, wish, and dream.  Here, this blog, is the first step in ending my life of if only… then I would…

No more of…

  • If only I could write eloquently then I would start a blog.  
  • If only I had something to say that others would want to read then I would be a blogger.
  • If only I was smarter and/or funnier then I would be able to have my own blog.
  • If only I knew that people would not only read my blog but enjoy it then I would write an awesome one for women.

These thoughts have circled around for so long.  A month ago I reached out to a few picked loved ones to see what their take was on my ability to tackle this endeavor.  Not going to lie the response was varied.  There were positives and positives laced with doubts.  Yesterday when I sat down and made my first official post I was scared, however my thoughts flowed and there was no way to stop them.  I hesitated for all of 30 seconds when I just prayed and pressed pubish.

An hour later I was feeling fairly encouraged.  Knowing I wanted to continue to blog I was worrying over what I was going to choose to post about next.  I got my answer via a phone call.  As I walked through the store looking for erasable pens and soft stiky velcro for Kyle (odd I know, but they are both a part of the new plan of action to tackle his ADHD at school) my ADHD was in full force, my head was spinning; how to plan my blogs, what exactly to blog about, be a focused blogger Alina, be perfect in your words, and what ever you do DO NOT dissapoint.  Phone rings!  I answer only to hear words that truly motivate and inspire me to go full speed ahead, God knew what I needed and he provided it and more through my friend’s words.  As I hung up the phone I prayed and thanked God for the people he has placed in my life and the life he has led me to today, I am truly blessed.  In those moments I knew I had made the right decision to just start writing and I feel stronly led in the direction of my blog.

In the posts to follow of this blog only God knows what you will actually find but I know it will be anything and everything that relates to being a woman, a wife, a mom, a daughter, a friend, and honestly probably even an enemy.  It will be laced with my faith and it will highlight the people and things that mean the most to me!  To all of you though, I promise you will not be named unless you have given me premission to do so!

Today is Friday!  It is a great day to make a decision big or small for you.  Do one thing that you have been putting off because of an If only… then I would… thought.  I dare you!  I even triple dog dare you!!  If you do please share it with me in the comments to this post, on my Facebook page, or through message in some form.  Lets all be brave women.  Lets stop doubting and start believing.  Walk in faith and live your best life starting now!


Hello. Welcome. Come on in and join me on my journey as I go from the token fat girl to the ever developing token fit woman. I am "just" a wife and mom who loves Jesus and struggles daily to find the balance we all desire throughout life. I depend on His word for guidance, I fuel my self with healthy foods, and I depend on regular fitness for strength so that I may grow towards the better version of myself each and every day.

5 thoughts on “If only… then I would…

      1. Honestly, it makes a huge difference for me! I love the pic with you and your son that you added, it really helps to create a deeper connection as a reader 🙂


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